angry. sad. depressed. irriated. tt's my mood for today. WAN TO KPKB THEN GET LOST. I DUN GIVE FACE ANYMORE. TAG W/O UR NAME AND I'LL BLOCK STRAIGHT I DUN CARE ALD READ FOR INTEREST NOT TO CONDEMM ever since she's back there arent any peace. and she is fcukin noisy. nt i wan to say tis but it's a fact. "EVELYN ALWAYS SPEAK THE TRUTH IN BLOGGING" <-- tt's the fact +) i thot the days she arent here were like 1 week ald. but it's only 3 days.. wow! the world mus have been spining for me these 3 days. but sad to say, happy days doesnt last. oh wells. nvm. i've my fair share of fun =) got to b ps by big jon. esther gg home. so i went home wif her, afterall we live so near. i REGRET doing tis. never did i ever know it was a bigg mistake of my part. i thought i've giving up on her. i thot there wont b this day when i'd cry over her again. but i was wrong. i failed wad i'm supposed to do. thruout the whole bus journey, i was there ald controlling my tears, tinking i finally can b the once strong me i was but no. i was very wrong. wad the heck have i done wrong in my previous life to deserve this treatment? and at the tender age of fifteen reaching sixteen? jus when i finally c light in my life? jus when i finally got over the truma in pri 3? jus when i thot i can trust and believe girls? any way, b'cos of her, * i learn how to hate some1 to extreme * i got to know how ppl can get things thru underhand methods * i understood fully wad it means by peng weis (and grow to hate tt) * i know wad it feels to c ur work taken by her and said it's hers * i know wad it means by noise pollution * i learn how irriating a person can get * i know wad extra means (as in 3rd party) in a relationship * i dun noe whether to trust girls anot * i know wad it means by flirting * i know wad it means by putting words into ppl mouth * i finally got to know my limit of being angry * i finally can scold a person in full vigularities and i mean it * i've seen how a person can scold a teacher (oh wells) * i know wad it means by the term "hyprocrites" * i saw thru the scene of acting (and i hate ppl who acts!) * i hate ppl who lie to me * i hate to b backstabbed (cos i finally know how much it hurts) * i got to know wad it's "attention-seekers" * i know y copy cats are so irriating isnt she fantastic? or is it great? it's up to u to decide =) use the words u like +) to dear estherCHUA: sorry abt tt super fake smile. i already tried to smile.. even though i know they r completely fake. . didnt manage to help u wif ya probs but instead i'm a burden to u. to big jon: i dun noe wad the heck is on. i'm jus caring abt est rite? i dun c the need of saying f* off and all those. I'M A GIRL; NOT A DOLL FOR U TO DISCARD HERE AND THERE. and btw, i'm NOT biased against her in any ways. and stop saying i zhen dui her when i never, when i'm stating a fact (which consist of evidence). if she didnt done anything wrong, then y would i b so angry wif her? anyways, i'm nt scolding anyone. oh, IF the person it's guility.. but no apologies for me pls, cos i dun need to befriend wif bitches. =) my mum doesnt like me wid bitches. and of cos, i intend to b a good lil gal. +) i learn my lessons on tt too. "once bitten, twice shy" i fully agrees wif this. but for me, it's not jus "twice shy", it's much more than tt.. been having a sh*t day. dun wan to blog ald. btw, stop calling me a bitch. (as in u mean it) i cant b bothered wif the rest but as for u. . . it's so diff my life begins spining wif u but somehow. i dun noe whether i realli like u anot my thoughts and feelings are kind of jubbled up i dun have the time to think abt it IF only i can stop the time thanks mr lai. he has been v encouraging in my PCCG bk! hahas. but y do i bully him by asking him to sing when he has sexy voice? but he's mean to me too. so we r quits! >.< eveLYN*

schooling is boring nowadays. having to do the same things each day. studying, talking, walking, listening, eating. practically tt's all. jus tt we r learning the same things. i dun c the fun we r having anymore. every teachers came into the class and said you are taking the o lvl tis year!! (hello, who doesnt know?) they kept repeating the words into us. it's nt as though after a night seep we'd forget tt we r taking o lvl tis yr.. the words are ald drilled into me; asking every one to buck up. we already knows all that. please stop forcing us!!!! argh. somehow we r ald so stressed up wif all the sickening homeworks.. there arent even enough time to study. let alone for us to forget we r taking o lvl tis yr! some random pics i took.. the shoe i wore to s'pore poly. it's a 6cm high one. i'm taller than ivan ald.. LOLS. it's a pic taken in lib- we r slackers! the eeyore my sis bought for her fren but nt me!! argh! (focus on the eeyore instead of my table!) the shoe i bought for cny me! trying my best to smile. . even though it wasnt really a true one the shopping mall my studying room.. in train. i jus woke up.. haha jus checking to c if my hair is ok. . the one i took frm sp

went to republic poly (13 o1 2oo6), nangyang poly (19 o1 2oo6) and temasek poly (2o o1 2oo6). i must say the best poly is the temasek.. the people are more fiendly, fun and the best is they will explain and talk more. as compared to e two others.. mus thank the 2 "da jie" who brings us ard the sch.. hahas... saw alfred.. but didnt talk.. cos i'm wif they all.. (siyi, chiping, hangyi, chinhui, yuying). it was quite fun la.. i'm nw considering whether to take biotech anot.. it's kinda fun.. but if i wan to b a teacher, i've got to go nie. which means the easier way out is nus. and to go nus, i need to go JC. the safer and best way.. oh no. JC.. it's like 12pts for good courses? *sighs* which is better now? i really love the way my class is right now. it's red.. (though i dun really like the colours..) 10 REASONS y i like my class ~ it's neat. (b'cos i'm the one tt arrange tables) ~ it's clean ~ it's very nice looking =) (i involve in the buying!!) ~ i tink it's the best decorated class.. (esp in G-ext) ~ the tables are wrapped up nicely ~ i have very nice teachers (who r very experience) ~ i have a lame but fun and strict form teacher (who likes flowers, pupple colour.. and he's only 55.9kg and quite tall.. HE'S A GUY.. mind u) ~ my classmates are GREAT. they arent bengs/lians =) ~ i have many good frens here.. chinhi, jingting, cindy, big jon, esther, hwee huan, chi ben, terence, . . . ~ i have a "palace" here. i'm da EMPRESS +) but y is there so many bad memories for me in this class too? y do i have to overcome so many things? y r there are so many walls for me to cross and to move ahead wif life. places i have to carry on and never to stop to rest. never to b left behind. y is there so many problems which i got to encounter at this stage of life? y do i do things which i've never done before.. like telling confess to HIM wad i shld never done in my entire life? i've NEVER DONE ANYTHING WRONG TOWARDS YOU FROM THE DAY I KNEW YOU TILL THE END OF THE DAY I SLASHED ALL OUR FRIENDSHIP TIES. can u say the same words too? i doubt so. anyways, GOOD LUCK TO THE NETBALLERS, BADMINTON PLAYERS AND THE BBALL TEAMS =D

i'm realli in a good mood. not only there's NO noise pollution to my ears and i'm realli happy +) ur greeting really brights my day up. ty =) have got the FIRST phy test back marks still ok. but still can b better 1/2 a mark more to a1 so tis's still a nice start goanna chiong for last yr and tis yr work for ss also. it doesnt means tt last minute study cannot do well wad i dun understand wad u r giving me tt look. it's nt as if i cheated everything. i only ask the hz que and nt like copying ur whole paper so stop giving me tt look i'm angry and have got enough. nvm. i'm in a super good mood wells. FORGIVEN =) u r my best fren; my confident so y i care abt tis small thing? +)

i'm no longer the gal

who still yearn for ur presence

i've finally got it clear

no matter wad ur stand is

i still goanna make my o the priority

so if anything we wont blame each other. +)

but i still like ya =)

nvm.

dear ivan; hope everything's fine though i noe it's nt. tc lots =)

dear esther; I'M NT TELLING U THE STORY!!!!

WHO IS THE DAMN ASS USING MY NAME IN MY BLOG AND ON DES ONE? so knn one. wanna die ar!!! anyway, if u tried again, u will know tt u cant tag in anymore cos u have been LIFE BANED by the 2 of us. so to everyone: dun do it cos it shall b the same situation. try me if u dun believe =)) this week have been a long week. lots of homework and infocus is starting on next week =((( ends at abt 3+ so no much worries. at first i thought it's 4.30.. but still i'm going home or the lib to study. dun even intend to go out aft sch. wed: we did the jobs things in lab. kinda boring.. but i chose teaching (pri/sec/jc) , chemist and police (the senior one!!!! do the crimes all those). but the matching exercise said i wasnt cut for all 3.. my abilities and my interest doesnt fit. heck care. i'm gg to choose one of it. cos i realli like all those.. but they said i'm cut for speech therapy etc. sians. thurs: went to concourse wif uncle lai (tt erms* our secret), twin, hidayah and farahdillah. it was quite fun ba.. but i can c tt we spent quite alot. i tink. uncle (aka big bro* winks) say only abt 60 but it's NOT i tink ard 80.. so we have decided on certain matters. fri: went to lib today. we r the slacking grp! i didnt do anything to lib. i jus slack ard.. and jus let the junior do all the stuffs. i'm such a CLEVER senior =)). we jus did our work.. but the lib assistant like wan ask to do things like tt.. then we say we got work to do =P btw, the indian rojak at blk 487 (i tink) is very nice =)) and me and esther love it =D and the drinks there.. i miss my seniors- melissa jie, evon yan, yiying, ken phoon kor, joyce lau, annabelle.

it has been a week since my sch started. wells. lots of change. but still it's considered still nice. as far as i'm concerned of cos. we elected the new class comm. wells, it's a nice change. hidayah and esther chua. (we didnt force ppl wan. LOLS-mr lai's phrase) i'm nw a welfare manager. i cant deny the fact it's gg to sux alot.. i gt to oversee everythg like tt. *gosh* and i've got to organise trips, help shakina (facilities manager) and bla. now there is still the cleanest and best decorated class things. mr lai (ft) is gg to bring me, chinhui, hidayah, farahdillah to concourse on wed. aft sch. sians. dunnoe wad to do... i tink he might feel kinda wierd ba. it's like 4 gurls and he's goanna b the onli guy. LOLs. my teachers have been change. ms picca is no longer my form teacher anymore.. and i quite miss her.. is like she has been teaching me for 3 years ald. ever since i'm in tis sch.. cant deny the fact tt i'm gg to miss her aft she left.. then it's like mr lai taking over.. mr lai is a great teacher.. the kind tt joke one ba. his phrase currently is "we dun force ppl one.." >.<" mrs heng isnt teaching me anymore. she's leaving too.. and not gg to b teaching anymore.. cos she wanted to b a devoted mum.. good fer her kid(s)! boo hoo. i'm right. mrs heng is avoiding us.. hais. mayb she tinks it's good fer us... wad can i say? mr sharil taking over.. he's nice too. but somehow i feel he similar to mr hafiz.. the kind tt surprise ppl.. he came into the class.. we joke. but we get some shock. he started asking question abt our sec 3 work. i somehow completely forgot abt all those.. boo. my pe teacher is no longer the one we can joke. nt mr owyong anymore. it's mdm soh/mrs vai. but it would mean no more of push ups, no more of running and yet running for pe. seeing e2 doing tt onli.. LOLs. joke la. (des goanna kill me) mrs vai seemed to b a nice teacher =D but i heard she's fierce.. sciences and maths teachers still remain the same.. but mdm lim placed me right in front of class in lab time.. mr chew had left us. for the ex-e5ians, it's like AGAIN. the second time. but for now, he might never b back anymore.. ms rafiddah is taking over us.. wells, her lessons r damn boring. but i'm nt sleeping in her class.. or any other teacher's class anymore. mr lai taught us smt tis week.. he doesnt force ppl.. and how to spot when sm1 is guilty... our in focus is on TUESDAY, WEDNESDAY, THURSDAY AND FRIDAY. which means tt i'm only free on monday. boo hoo. infocus ends at 4.3o somemore. it'll b late when i get home. hais. life smt sux man.. my cca is on fri. and i doesnt need to go home late. cos i decided to use my break time for my cca. so i'll still b gg home at 4.30 =D been a good kid.. so far had keep to most of my resolution =) gg out soon. blog like next week??? LOLS. anyway, i can expect a boring tuition day tmr. hais. wish me luck for the coming surprise test for ss. and tt i can finish all my homework.. which is like chi compre, e math assignment, a math assignment, chem tys, phys practical bk, physics worksheet, geo worksheet and PCCG. sians. sms/call me if there's anything. if dunnoe then leave a tag. i'll visit my blog when i'm free.. but nt blog =)

sometimes i wish i could jus slap myself -.- ohwells, i did smt tt was against my new year resolution i did try nt to sms him oh wells actually intended jus to msg a simple new year msg but then he replied me abt my phone so i answered every bits and i didnt tink anything else.. but then i msg the wrong person at night -.- oh oh. and tt's him oops! =X somehow the feelings seems to come back i'm in deep shit cos i'm nt to tink anything on tt. argh take it as it comes n goes i dunnoe wad more can i do ald had a bad quarrel wif my mum on the last day of 2005. it was realli a bad one my jie and me against my mum nt bad huh? the 2 elder ones but wad can i do? argh. nvm somehow it's alrite ald ba i tink.. we got talk le anyways, i LOVE my jie and she will love me the best among me n my sis =D she rawks! my mei is jealous of me! heh heh tt's a nice n fresh news though =D cant wait for sch but i dunnoe wad to do when i c u. and her too. trying to forgive her again? argh cant b bothered cos i know i shall b a nice lil gal =D studying to the best (= and getting help when i needed. tt's the best and i've got to pass my phys and geo and tt's the most impt and i got to do it =)) my phone down for repair boo hoo.